Confession of a broken heart…
I was watching Confession of a broken heart video by Lindsay Lohan and it got me thinking about my realmom. Not that I miss her but just wondering….did she ever love me? Why she left us with some stranger? We was lucky because he called my dad and my dad picked us up.
The last time i met her when I was 5-6 years old. I remember she went to my grandparents house. My grandfather went upstairs and took his rifle. The meeting wasn’t last long and I remember me & my sister run inside the house because we don’t want to see her. We never see her since then. My grandparents still live in the same house and I live with my grandparents until i was 13.
Sometimes I wonder, what if she come back? Can i accept her into my life? Currently my answer is NO. I would never forgive her for leaving us and for beating me. I’m so glad she leave us because it is wrong to abuse your kid no matter how much you not satisfy with your husband.
I’m happy with my life. I have loads of people who love me. My grandparents, my family, my friends, my colleagues & my fiance. I don’t think i will miss not having her love because as far as i remember she never love me. If you love your daughter, you don’t leave your 3 years old daughter and 9 months daughter to some stranger and follow other guy. I don’t hate you but I just wish you never come to my life again……
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I’m so sorry to hear that Nadiana.
I’m sure at some point of her life, she loved you both – but she was blinded but a thing she thought was love.
Well you don’t have to accept her into your life if you don’t want to. Just forgive (though it might be very hard); for with that will come peace.
I wish you luck in everything you do xx
I forgive her and I don’t hate her
Life is unfair sometimes but it makes u become stronger.
that’s why God give you Paul, someone to love you truly.
I’m so sorry to hear that Nadiana.
I’m sure at some point of her life, she loved you both – but she was blinded but a thing she thought was love.
Well you don’t have to accept her into your life if you don’t want to. Just forgive (though it might be very hard); for with that will come peace.
I wish you luck in everything you do xx
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