Friendship

A couple of years ago, I had a close friend who lives in Netherlands. We chat a lot and we enjoy play msn games together. Later on, he told me that he’s tired with his current life and he wanted to go to Thailand to study TEFL and become English teacher and find a girlfriend.

I saw how discipline he study grammar book. He told me he’ll come to Thailand a couple of months before TEFL class started. So, we make a plan to do backpacking and travel around Thailand. The plan “gone” when he started getting to know a Thai girl a few months before he travel to Thailand. I don’t mind he has a girlfriend but I don’t understand why, when guys have a girlfriend…They started to stay away from their friend especially if they are opposite gender. I was mad but i tried to understand the situation.

Then, a few months ago….i was active in wayn and i had a guy who wanted to be in my friends list. I authorized him and we never chat or message each other until one day, he suddenly message me. I was shocked. We exchange msn & ym id. We can talk about everything and i had fun talking to him. He told me he will take a year off to travel round the world and i envy him. Travel is fun and seeing beautiful ancient building and learning new culture is amazing. He planned to come to Malaysia after june and i thought why not do backpacking in Borneo. We both study about Borneo and i did a lot research. He went to Spain with his brother 3 months ago. It suppose to be for a week but he extend it because he wanted to explore more. He went to Spain, Portugal, Paris and etc. What makes me mad to him because he didn’t keep in touch with me while he doing the travelling. I expect to receive a test or email from him telling about what’s happening there and update me but it didn’t happened. I know, our friendship won’t be the same again when he return. He went back to England a few days ago and we chat at 4am (malaysia time) this morning. He explained and apologized to me because he didn’t keep in touch with me while he’s travelling. I just laughed and i said to him “ It’s ok. It’s not a big deal for me”. He was shocked because he expected me to get mad since we were close. Yes, i was very mad but what’s the point?! His explanation is not important ANYMORE.

While writing this entry, my tears fall down……why am i cried? I treasure friendship and i realized people change easily due to stupid reason and they don’t know how to balance up their life, relationship & friendship. What i expect from Kim? I don’t want to lose him and i want to remain friends with him……forever. I hope he won’t make me cry……

Danny…….is one of my close friend remain since last year. He’s dating a Thai girl now and i hope we still remain friends and he didn’t shut me away. But if it’s happen, i should get to use with it,right? I’M COOL

Danny, thanks for being there when i need someone to talk and always cheer me up. You have wonderful ability to know when to offer advice and when to sit in quite support. Thanks for everything.